The looser in all of us

Ishmael and the narrator are the most important characters in the book “Ishmael” by Daniel Quinn. By the time I arrived to chapter 7, it seemed so awkward that the book talked so little about their personal lives. For Ishmael, I gained information by a glanced at his past, in the first chapters. Nevertheless, I just knew the narrator was in search of a solution to the human disaster.
Just by reading the first paragraph of chapter 10, my concern was no longer there. I learned that Ishmael, also had a week point, and wasn’t the hero I thought he was.
“I said, “Well, where shall we begin? Do you remember where we left of?”
“Shut up.”
“Shut up? But I thought we were going to go on just as before.”
With a grunt, he shuffled to the rear of the cage and gave us all a look at his back.” (pg. 196)
The “Shut up”, that Ishmael said to the narrator, took his
Superhero mask of. I saw that Ishmael was also ashamed of him, and was not longer laying in a bed of roses.
Even though I was able to release the looser from Mr. Perfectionist, I felt extremely bad. Once again, I said to myself: a hero failed. Martin Luther King was shot, as well as Mahatma Gandhi, or Abraham Lincoln and Bolívar died alone and deceived.
Isn’t this unfair? They all give us hope and make us believe in a better world, but for the price of our lives. In that case, we wouldn’t even be alive for the better world! How ironic is that? And after all, one of the main ingredients the prohibited fruit Adam ate was ego, and I think most of us prefer to live in a world of disaster than not live at all.
I think that is why Quinn left Ishmael’s life for the end; he wanted to give the reader the bad news in the end. I regret being curious in the first place, because unconsciously I knew I would just receive another failure.